Having lived through breast cancer I now truly know that ‘prevention is better than a cure’, and the way forward in terms of preventing breast cancer and indeed all illness and disease has to be; changing how we feel about our bodies and embracing, acknowledging and appreciating how very precious and tender yet powerful they truly are. Honesty is the first step. Having discovered for myself the powerful medicine honesty is, I can share from my own experience with breast cancer and say without any hesitation:
I created my own illness from the choices I made on a daily basis.
A powerful statement, powerful in its honesty, and which had a powerful, remarkable impact on my treatment and recovery. By all considerations I was a healthy woman, I did lots of yoga, and did not smoke, rarely drank and was not overweight. So how did I create my own illness?
I was a master at abusing my body – and the greatest abuse to my body? …
I completely rejected my body, detested my body and was ashamed of my body. Thus I gave no thought, consideration or respect to my body in all that I did.
I took my body for granted, and when you take anything or anyone for granted, it is so easy to abuse and yet have no clue you are abusing because the behaviour of self-abuse has become your ‘normal’ on a daily basis.
In this momentum of daily abuse I was living in ignorance, ignorant to the fact that like any vehicle, the body has to have maintenance too – check-ups, stop moments, rest periods, proper nourishment, sleep (quality sleep being the real fuel for the body). As it was I attended to none of this, therefore I was always running with my battery empty… exhausted.
Being exhausted from when I awoke, I needed something to get me through my day: sugar. Sugar was my choice of drug; I was a sugar addict. With my constant rushing, pushing and driving my body to live up to the roles I had taken on – superwoman/super-mum, and Mrs Independent who doesn’t need support – along with my daily sugar rush which provided the boost I needed to push and drive my body even more… yes, I abused my body. This complete lack of self-nurturing is how I lived every day and is how and why I developed breast cancer.
I have come to this awareness after the fact of breast cancer, but what is it we as women need to change in order to prevent this in the first place?
Rejecting, Abusing, Harming And Bashing Our Bodies Is ‘what we need to change’.
It is NOT normal to intensely reject, and loathe our bodies. It is a billion, trillion, zillion times away from normal. It is the greatest downfall for every human being when we reject our body, for we also reject our wisdom and we reject the intelligence that our wise bodies can provide when we appreciate, respect and deeply nourish and care for our physical vehicle.
Taking Care Of All Others Before Ourselves Is ‘what we need to change’.
It is self-abuse, when we take care of everyone before ourselves – it is self- neglect and self-sabotage on a grand scale.
When I put myself first and took care of my own needs, putting self-care and self-nurturing into my daily practice, everything changed in my life. It is like taking a magic pill as we no longer need the coping strategies and secondly, we begin to develop a loving relationship with ourselves and our bodies, through self-nourishing and self-appreciation.
It is self-love that stops the ingrained pattern of abusing our bodies, with self-love slowly replacing self-rejection.
I had rejected being a woman completely, I had rejected my own beauty, stillness and tenderness, and in that rejection had come the dishonouring of myself as a woman… No-one to blame; I dishonoured myself.
Coming to this awareness brought a new level of honesty, slowly I was able to claim back that which I walked away from; my own divinity and grace.
We take a huge step in our evolution when we stop rejecting self; when we stop rejecting our body and the love that we were born with and all are.
I certainly did.
Could it be possible that illness and disease are part of our evolution because of the ‘stop’ it brings us and the clearing it offers; the clearing of everything that holds us back from being who we truly are?
I discovered the deeper I care, cherish, nourish and love my body the more my body truly supports and communicates to me the wisdom it holds, and the more I feel from my true essence; thus, it is from this space that I have made many new choices that truly honour, respect and evolve my physicality – my body.
Listening to the wisdom of our bodies is how we navigate through all illness and disease. The body knows how to make you stop, it also knows what support it needs to recover and truly heal. So many choices become available when we come back to living from our bodies.
I did change how I feel about my body and I stopped taking my body for granted. The catalyst was breast cancer – it provided me the ‘big stop’ and rest period my exhausted body needed. I did not work for one year during my treatment, and in that year my body taught me much… my body reflected much… my body asked me to listen… and I listened.
Before breast cancer I made choices that harmed and abused my body, now I am making loving choices that truly allow access to the wisdom and intelligence my body holds and at the same time
supports the prevention of future illness and disease.
Although we may not always be able to prevent breast cancer, it is possible to reduce our risk by taking responsibility for our life. I learned that my life and my health were a reflection of all my past choices. With embracing this simple, yet powerful truth, there was no space for feeling a victim of life, there was no space to blame anyone, thus another space opened up for me, the space to surrender…
Too late for prevention, nothing left to do but ‘surrender’ to the clearing, healing and learning that was on offer, to accept what I had created, to accept that change was inevitable, to accept support and to continue to develop this new way of self-nurturing and honest living with myself.
In deep gratitude to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for all their support with my reconnection back to my body; this support with Sacred Esoteric Healing enabled me to listen and live from my body’s truth and guidance. I have also been supported by Esoteric Women’s Health to look at the bigger picture of my life and how I had been living as a woman.
by Jacqueline McFadden, BA in Computing and Human Resources; Teacher and Esoteric Healing Practitioner, The Netherlands
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