I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and was so blown away by what I saw. The words were out there in the room before I could stop them – ‘OMG I am so hot I don’t know why this mirror isn’t bursting into flames’. I suspect that this is the result of the growing appreciation of myself as the woman I am and the refusal to allow self-critical or self-bashing thoughts to invade my days. This has not always been the case.
Self-loathing and self-criticism
I have a history of an abusive childhood and in the past used to look into any mirror with dismay, anger and criticism, searching for faults and nodding my head when I saw them, seeking confirmation that I wasn’t what I should be.
What did I think I should be? Everything that wasn’t who I am.
I wanted: A different build, height, hair colour, less weight with no wrinkles, no saggy bits and no drooping bits. Continue reading “My Appreciation of the Woman I am”