I have recently completed a program called Stillness and Cycles with Sara Harris from Follow Your Flow. It was 6 weeks of finding out everything and more about our cycles. Each week we attended a presentation, discussion and an Esoteric Yoga session, charted our cycle every day, learned about the cycle on a physical and energetic level, and kept a daily journal of body awareness and observations of each phase.
The program has taught me about repose, and I have had a physical taste of what that really means.
If for a moment we consider the human body to be like any motor engine (which in truth it is – a magnificent engine that makes so much possible for us), then we know that the two basic components which make a motor engine are stator – the part that does not move but plays an equally important role as the part that it supports to move, which is rotor. In the case of the human body, we have all the moving mechanisms which form the moving, motion (rotor) part and, not necessarily in physical parts but more so in the quality of the movements, we have a repose (stator) part. What and how we move, always begins from repose and the quality of it. The greater the repose i.e. the quality of our being in stillness, the greater the movements.
Previously, I couldn’t get my head around repose – how could we be doing things and participating in normal everyday and very busy life, but be in repose? It seemed a bit unattainable. I thought it meant lying down and not being very productive. I didn’t see how life could be lived like this – always lying down??
During this program I experienced and understood the magic of repose, the wonder of its dual dynamic – of feeling settled and still, yet participating and expressing in all aspects of life – taking a back seat in the front row. Why a back seat? The back seat stands for settlement. Because we are at the performance (life); we are fully present to the performance, yet we are settled in ourselves. From this place; our ability to simply observe without getting entangled in what is playing out in front of us is far greater and as a result we are enriched but detached.
Why the front row? Because we are participating, active and involved. We are seen and not hidden in the shadows of the back row. And because of the front seat view – we see more than we have ever seen.
Taking a back seat in the front row relates to a distinct sense of being able to sit back into myself. As I had this feeling of sitting back, I felt the support like that of a chair where I could let my physical body go and be held. I settled back and was held…by my cycle.
In a sense I am on the edge of my seat and wanting more, whilst being completely rested and sat back in my seat. What a combination! To be at the ready and participating in all aspects of life, but to be settled and at ease. To have experienced this feeling of settlement has been incredible. I have been a highly anxious person pretty much all my life and I can still push that anxious button. However, through this program of Esoteric Yoga and understanding our cycles, understanding my cycles, I have had a taste of something entirely different and out of this world.
My cycle guides me in this; supporting me to see the depths that are on offer energetically and physically. For example, if I take the menstrual phase where I currently am, then my body has moved into depths of tenderness, delicateness and sensitivity. I can take that seat and participate in life from this point, sitting back, enriched by the depth of what I can feel and surrender to. Or I can fight and miss the fact that there is a chair there with my name on it and with the depths it offers. There are two sides to the coin; I choose which.
What is also amazing is that I am aware that we are part of many cycles, at any one time, whether of day and night, our sleep cycle, the weekly cycles, the cycles of the season, the decades cycles etc – everything comes back around. By being connected to my menstrual cycle, I have had the feeling of being somehow connected to them all.
Repose is our home and it’s inside of us. It is a quality of rhythm that is integral to our being. Through Esoteric yoga, stillness, and bringing out the greater levels of innate tenderness and sensitivity, I have been able to feel that repose; that natural way of being where my body settles and greater awareness of life switches on. From here I could experience the performance that played out in front of me, but not become lost in its narrative.
With much due appreciation and thanks to the Benhayon family for blazing the trail with their livingness, and Sara Harris for her dedication to women’s health and all things cycles at Follow your Flow.
By Simone G, London, UK
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9 thoughts on “Repose: taking a back seat in the front row”
Thank you Simone for sharing with us your delicate and intimate relationship with repose. I can feel a sense of deepening and unfolding has been inspired in my body.
You have offered us a moment of repose with your dedication and commitment to embracing everything that the cycles have to offer.
After reading your blog Simone I feel I have a greater understanding of the relationship between repose and motion and the support this will offer. It is amazing to feel the ‘settlement’ repose offers within the ‘motion’ (phases of activity) and the holding it offers not only to me but also to others in my life.
When we move from repose, the quality of our expression is full of us
It’s very beautiful to read and feel every word you shared here Simone. It inspires me greatly to surrender and let go, knowing that we are deeply held by the preciousness of our being and its natural flow.
The quality of repose inspires the quality of motion and then the quality of motion deepens the repose.
“Repose is our home and it’s inside of us. It is a quality of rhythm that is integral to our being.” – what comes out must first be within, so it makes sense that we look after the quality of the within so as to guarantee the quality that comes out.
Thank you Simone for your sharing about cycles and how deeply supportive this has been for you to re-discover repose in its true essence. This is something I am still working with and learning about, and always appreciate another perspective and understanding reflected back to me!
That is totally beautiful Simone, to know ourselves so deeply and so intimately is not a norm we are taught in life. To make ourselves so precious and important is gorgeous for us all.