I recently participated in a 6 week Esoteric Yoga Program for Women at a significant point in my life – towards the end of my last pregnancy. I was blown away by all that the program unveiled for me, and the offer to go deeper to appreciate the amazingly powerful woman that I am. I noticed as I progressed through the program I was connecting more with an inner stillness.
This supported me to be more lovingly attentive and remain steady through each day and as situations came up.
The following is just one example of a situation that came up while on the program and what was revealed to me about making a choice to feel amazing.
I decided that I needed some new clothes. I had plenty of ‘big’ clothes in my wardrobe, but when I put them on, I felt like I was covering up, hiding me. Most of my clothes were what I called ‘around the house’ clothes. Which was fine when I was around the house, but when I stepped outside,
I just didn’t feel like I was reflecting what I felt on the inside.
So I planned to meet up with my sister-in-law and find some clothes that I could feel comfortable in, but also that I could still express the fun sexy me I was feeling.
On this particular day I was feeling amazing and how I looked really reflected this. I had taken my time to do my hair and apply my makeup. I do this most mornings, but this particular morning I noticed the extra care I took, and I held this as I moved into my day.
During the course of my morning I met up with two women. One of the women was very open and chatted with me about my day ahead while I noticed the other woman appeared to be uncomfortable with my presence. I even noticed a reaction from her when I mentioned that “I need new clothes because my belly is getting too big”. She looked me up and down and rolled her eyes.
As I walked out, I could feel right there and then that I had two choices… I could allow all the thoughts flooding in to try to convince me that I had done something wrong, including: “Was I showing off?”, “Was I too overdressed to just go shopping?”, and “Why doesn’t she like me this morning?” There was also that familiar guilty feeling of “Is it ok to spend the whole day doing something for me?”
The options were all there before me. I could listen to these thoughts, or, I could return back to the beautiful connection I had felt just moments prior. I stopped walking, readjusted my posture – which had slightly sunk – smiled and said, “No! this is just jealousy, and I need to see this as a confirmation of how I am feeling amazing, AND that I am actually letting this out for people to see!”
It was a great experience to have caught myself right in this moment of choice – as it happened.
In the past I would have let those thoughts and doubts continue on in my head and put a serious dampener on my day. We are so sensitive to what is going on around us all the time. Just one sideways glance, a frown, an eye roll, a smirk or a little giggle, and we notice this big time. Right in that moment, we know exactly what that little sign or gesture means. It’s what we chose to do with that feeling next that determines how we respond in the following minute, day, week or even years.
Do we honour how amazing we truly are, or allow what’s going on for someone else to determine how we feel about ourselves?
It’s that simple. After having this experience, I have now realised with the support of the Esoteric Yoga Stillness Program for Women, that I have chosen the latter for a big chunk of my life. The program has been a huge support for me in appreciating myself and the beautiful relationship I can have with my body. I’ve realised how much I have measured, catered to, and readjusted myself to make sure that everyone else around is feeling ok with me – at the expense of allowing myself to just be the amazing woman I am.
I now know I can choose to feel amazing, no matter what.
By Nicole Ricketts, Childcare Worker, NSW, Australia
For further Inspiration …
What if we learned to live in a way that knows we are amazing just for being us?!
What is Esoteric Yoga – the Yoga of Stillness?
Do you allow yourself to be fully you, to express yourself with no holds barred? What if you did?