My menopause began when I was 47 years old and this was at a point in my life when everything was changing. My marriage had come to an end and my daughter and my son were preparing to leave home. Little did I know at that time that this was just the beginning of life, and that I was about to be reincarnated. I use the word ‘reincarnated’ because that is how it feels in retrospect – as though:
All that I had been before was a shadow of the woman I am today.
I am now 69 and the intervening years have been a gradual unfoldment from a point where I felt discarded and where:
I had no concept of how it would be to live life without the recognition of being needed.
I am now at a place where I have become more confident in who I am and I feel a beautiful woman in my own right. In 2008 I started seeing an esoteric healing practitioner, and with her support I gradually realised that I would like to know more about the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. As I began to read ‘The Way It Is’ I felt an instant connection and inner knowing that this book was presenting something that was familiar and would take me to a place of deeper connection. It was unlike anything else I had come across before in this lifetime.
It was not preaching something new to me, but encouraging me to go within and seek from an innate knowingness.
The last six years have been amazing – although I did not always make them easy. The way in which I challenge myself has now become a point where I can reflect, recognise and take responsibility. I am becoming more open to the wisdom reflected back to me from the amazingly beautiful women around me, who by their reflection are supporting me to connect deeply within. As I become more aware and familiar with myself it also allows me to connect to those around me and we can then expand the experience together.
Once a month I attend a Women’s Group in London presented by Sara Williams. This commitment has been a pivotal part of my unfoldment as I am meeting other women and together we are exploring how it is to feel more connection to our bodies and what it is that our bodies are presenting to us in the way that we feel as women. This is supporting me to connect to my body in a totally new way.
I feel the tenderness and delicacy of their reflection, and this allows me to connect to that same feeling within.
I am slowly opening to the idea of how in the past I have totally disregarded all that my body is offering me each and every moment, of each and every day. The whole process of realising this is allowing me to feel and have a sense of what it is like to be a woman. Previously I would have identified myself as a mother, wife, sister, daughter or something else that identified me by what I did. I am now beginning to feel the divine essence of me as a woman as I begin to connect to my power from within, as well as the preciousness and delicacy of a woman that is true and committed to all that she truly is.
At the Women’s Group we have also been looking at the cycles in our lives as women, and in particular the cycles we are offered by our monthly period, and for those in menopause, a cycle based on the moon cycle. I have been very resistant to actually using the cycles to support me as I have been following a now too familiar pattern of doing things my way and also not being fully committed to myself and humanity.
As part of my unfoldment I have also committed to the Esoteric Women’s Health Programme which for me is a series of 12 sessions with Sara Williams. When reaching the tenth session it was truly amazing to feel the shift as I became more willing to begin the process of surrender. At the same time I began to realise my power and how, if I am holding back on this power, there is an impact not only on my life but on those around me and beyond. I could feel how the impact of holding back affects the cycles of our lives as we are contracting and restricting the natural rhythm of our body – which is to expand.
Menopause feels like a time of amazing opportunities to expand our lives even further and to confirm and consolidate all that we are learning. This feels so refreshing after the previous imprint of menopause being a time when women lose their vitality as they approached the end of their temporal lives and gradually give-up on that life. Now that the body can no longer reproduce we tend to disconnect from our sexiness and the full vibrancy of everything that we associate with being a woman in her prime.
Menopause is an amazing opportunity to deeply connect to that wisdom we can all innately connect to if we so choose.
It can be a time to explore our essence and allow this depth to build and develop and to become a reflection of all that we are.
I have been a post-menopausal woman for the last 22 years of my life and if I live to the age of 85 I will have spent 38 years of my life as a post-menopausal woman. For some time now I have felt that I have far more to offer to the world – that I am not ready to just sit and wait for old age and eventually a time when I will pass over to the next plane of life.
So it is time to ponder…
What is the menopause all about? Is it a time to withdraw from life, or to celebrate the awesomeness we are as women?
by Susan Lee
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